Deep in the bowels of my blog’s unpublished entries, there’s a post from 2006 that will forever remain in drafts, if I don’t delete it entirely.
It is untitled.
The opening lines:
This is the post where I am scared to hit “publish.” The one I fear will be permanently archived on these here internets and I will be powerless to erase my words.
When I think of this pregnancy, I am not excited. That is not the adjective that comes to mind.
I am terrified.
I could have been happy with one. I am happy with one. I never saw myself as “mother of two.”
Mother of two. Oh my God, what have I done.
